Ulrike Meinhof Writes From the Dead Wing - June 16th 1972 to February 9th 1973

Ulrike Meinhof Writes From the Dead Wing - June 16th 1972 to February 9th 1973

The feeling, one’s head explodes (the feeling, the top of the skull will simply split, burst open) —
the feeling, one’s spinal column presses into one’s brain —
the feeling, one’s brain gradually shrivels up like, for example, a baked fruit —
the feeling, one is uninterruptedly, imperceptibly, under a torrent, one is remote controlled, one’s associations are hacked away —
the feeling, one pisses the soul out of one’s body, like when one cannot hold water —
the feeling, the cell moves. One wakes up, opens one’s eyes: the cell moves; afternoon, if the sun shines in, it suddenly remains still. One cannot get rid of the feeling of motion. One cannot tell whether one shivers from fever or from cold —
one cannot tell why one shivers — one freezes.
To speak at a normal volume requires an effort like that necessary to speak loudly, almost like that necessary to shout—
the feeling, one stops speaking —
one can no longer identify the meaning of words, one can only guess —
the use of sibilants — s,ss, tz, sch — is absolutely unbearable
guards, visits, the yard seems to be made of celluloid —
headaches —
flashes —
sentence construction, grammar, syntax — can no longer be controlled.
When writing two lines — by the end of the second line, one cannot remember the beginning of the first —
the feeling, internal burn-out —
the feeling, if one must say what’s wrong, if one wants to let it out, it’s like a rush of boiling water in the face, like, for example, boiling water that scalds one forever, that disfigures —
Raging aggressivity, for which no outlet exists. That’s the worst.
Clear consciousness that one has no possibility of survival; a complete breakdown of the capacity to mediate this;
Visits leave nothing. A half an hour later one can only mechanically reconstruct whether the visit was today or last week.
Compared to this, bathing once a week means: momentary thaw, a moment of rest — to stop for a couple of hours —
The feeling, time and space are interlocked —
The feeling to find oneself in an amusement park house of mirrors —
to stagger —
Afterwards: awful euphoria, that one heard something — beyond the acoustic day and night differentiation —
The feeling, time now flows, the brain again expands, the spinal column sinks down after weeks.
The feeling, as if one’s skin is thickening.

Red Army Faction - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Red Army Faction - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia


On May 9, 1976, Ulrike Meinhof was found dead in her cell, hanging from a rope made from jail towels. An investigation concluded that she had hanged herself, a result hotly contested at the time, spurring a plethora of conspiracy theories. Other theories suggest that she took her life because of being ostracized by the rest of the group.

so...

I should be asleep
letting myself worry instead
shouldn't
but do
sometimes
i just think all the wrong thoughts
the voice lately says
"I'm broken."
i've even caught myself
saying it aloud
even if I think
Laing is right
and broken
is the only
way to be
in this broken
world
i wonder
am i broke right?
or broke wrong?
nights like this
when the brain
starts up
every time
I close
my eyes
I have to wonder...
i have to wonder...
so i do.
i lie there
and i motherfuckin'
wonder
when i should
be sleeping
enjoying the parts
of my life
that are going well
and not worrying so
much about the rest
letting the ones
sabotage the others
wonderin'
so much craziness
running rampant
rampant
i say
now i'm up
typing this
and chatting
baader-meinhof
and other bits
of 20th century
german history
with a friend
and trying to
get tired enough
that when i close
my eyes
it all goes
dark.

Art on Cardboard Show 04-13-07 - a photoset on Flickr

for those what didn't make it to the show Killian snapped some pics...

Art on Cardboard Show 04-13-07 - a photoset on Flickr

365 days/365 plays

gonna be a fun show!
had final rehearsal tonight...
went great.
not just the usual suspect either -
check out the cast.

and, oh yeah,
music by The Defenestration Unit -
rockin' it two minutes at a time...
actually we'll start about 7:30 with
the dramatic action starting at 8:00
and then we'll play between each piece
and for a while at the end while folks mingle
and drink...
it's free, and it only last about an hour,
so you can still have a full evening of drinking
or dancing
or fishing
or whatever.



mildred's umbrella theater company

365 Days/365 Plays-
Suzan-Lori Parks
One Weekend Only:
April 20 and 21, 2007

Houston, TX: WHAT IS 365 DAYS/365 PLAYS?

On November 13, 2002 Suzan-Lori Parks got an idea to write a play a day for a year. She began that very day, finishing one year later. The resulting play cycle, called 365 Days/365Plays, is a daily meditation on an artistic life. Some plays are very short, less than a page. Others last forever.

Listen to the radio spot on KUHF

Over 700 theaters are producing the plays nationally. Including local groups such as Infernal Bridegroom Productions, NovaArts, HSPVA, Bobbindoctrin Puppet Theatre, and Strand Street Theatre.

Mildred's Umbrella Theater Company is performing their 7 assigned plays, along with The Three Constants (short plays that all theatres in the festival may use), on April 20 and 21 at 8pm. The show is "Pay as You Like", meaning it is free to the public, although patrons are encouraged to make a small donation to the production. The performances will take place at Midtown Art Center, 3414 LaBranch at Holman.

For more information about this production, please visit Mildred's Umbrella's website at www.mildredsumbrella.com or call 832-418-0973.

For more information about the 365 days/365 plays festival in general, please visit the official website at www.365days365plays.com.

What: 365 Days/365 Plays by Suzan Lori-Parks
Who: Mildred’s Umbrella Theater Company
When: April 20 and 21, 2007

Featuring LIVE music by 'The Defenestration Unit'

Where: Midtown Art Center, 3414 LaBranch at Holman

How Much: Free, or pay as you like

Contact: mildredsumbrella@hotmail.com or 832-418-0973

Come on by and check out MU and some of their freinds participate in a interesting weekend of short plays,
REMEMBER: ITS FREE!

Cast/crew

over all Production Manager/Dir: Jennifer Decker 1) Accident- Dir. by Jennifer Decker Man- Ryan Kelly Woman-Amy Warren Waiter- Heidi Morgan Band Leader- Mike Switzer 2) Less and Less Dir. by Jennifer Decker Man- John Wind 3) Project Ulysees Film by Paul Locklear Cast- BLP 4) Kinder Lehrnen Deutsch dir by- Eric Doss Man- Alan Hall Woman- Patricia Duran

5) The Jesus Rose Masha- Christie Guidry Donotalo- Mike Switzer Max- Bob Morgan Clara- Carole Kelly Stranger- David Anderson 6) Litter of Discontent- dir. by Rob Baker Man- Dave Harlan Woman- Kelly Manison Guard- Troy Schulz Happy Woman- Brandy Robichau Happy Man- Richard Lyders 7) Monster’s Mother dir. - John Harvey Mother 1- All Stephen Foulard Mother 2,Chorus of Woodsmen,Servant 1,Servant 2 8) Constant 1- Remember who you are Someone- Liz Seabolt Someone Else- Karen Schlag 9) Constant 2- Action in Inaction-Anne Zimmerman

tonight

two whiskeys
cost the same as two of my meals
(or one good one)

not drinking
at home alone tonight
instead drinking
at the bar alone tonight

the wild ones
have all left town
there is no #
no point in picking up the phone
nobody to answer, "Where?"
when I say, "Drink?"
so there I am
whiskey in my hand
reading
The Pillowman

yeah,
that cheered me up.

then I work on lines -
act II - The Lower Depths
"In the old days, old man,
before my organism was poisoned with alcohol..."

None of these things
the whiskey
The Pillowman
The Lower Depths
distract me from the real

the one who ended up sleeping
in my bed one drunk night
(i emphasize sleeping)
the one i think about
asking to marry me
once a week or so
the one who escaped by marriage
and all the married ones I haven't met yet...

and the fact that I'm drinking,
as I'll be sleeping,
alone.

FOXNews.com - Writers Praise Kurt Vonnegut - Celebrity Gossip | Entertainment News | Arts And Entertainment

haven't mentioned Vonnegut's passing...
he was one of the big ones for me.
I never tire of reading and rereading his work.
His humanism had a profound influence on my thoughts.
He was a great man, if such a thing exists.


FOXNews.com - Writers Praise Kurt Vonnegut - Celebrity Gossip | Entertainment News | Arts And Entertainment


"I became a writer because of him," said Walter, 41. "It was his compassion, humanism and great humor in the face of 20th century horrors that made me realize all that a writer could do. He was deceptively simple and because readers discovered him when they were young, they sometimes made the mistake of dismissing him later, but what he was doing was so complex, so difficult."

Cardboard Art Show - Friday at Super Happy Fun Land 6-9pm Me, Joe Mathlete, Keith, Rosa, Justin, Joel and more....

Finished my pieces up this morning...
this is going to be a great show - many of my favorite people showing their work...
hope you can come by...

M

The Birdhouse Museum presents the Cardboard Art Show at Super Happy Funland from Friday April 13th thru the 20th.

Opening party 6 PM to 9 PM Friday April 13th.

Creative Types channel their energy to cardboard.
Each artist makes 13 pieces, each piece on 6" by 8" cardboard.
Featuring (but not limited to):
Justin Crane - Austinite, former KTRU DJ, musician and card designer.
Keith Reynolds - Houston's original cardboard artist.
Joe Mathlete - Check out Joe's blog and you'll see why he's got to be there.
Claire Yanik - Used to bartend at Catal Huyuk (the Axiom)she now lives in False Pass, Alaska and is a painter and the dj for the Nonalignment Pact.
Joel Orr - Houston puppeteer and organizer.
Poopy Lungstuffing - Poopy LungStuffing is a co-Founder of Super Happy Fun Land, a crazy weirdo artist and musician
Flakey - Flakey is a co-Founder of Super Happy Fun Land, a crazy weirdo artist and musician
Lisa Yu - Lisa Yu is Chicago based artist.
John Cramer - Houston psych-metal guitar wizard of Mike Gunn, Project Grimm fame.
Rosa Guerrero - Houston rock photographer and writer. Look out.
Emerald Mystiek - Austin visual artist and designated cool person.
Allan Pocius - Chicago cardboard artist. The originator of the Birdhouse Museum series of cardboard art shows.
Denise Ramos - Houston artist and club proprietor.
YET Torres - Houston based artist.
Marie Catrett - Austinite creator extraordinaire
Mike Switzer - Houston musician and Infernal Bridegroom affiliate


http://www.disclexington.com/cardboard.htm

http://www.superhappyfunland.com

Where's mike this week?

A calendar (for stalkers)

Monday - Work and rehearsal for The Lower Depths
Tuesday - Work, rehearsal for Mildred's Umbrella's 365 days/365 plays and The Lower Depths
Wednesday - Work, The Lower Depths rehearsal, and then The Defenestration Unit's weekly gig at Bohemeo's
Thursday - No work(instead working on art and working on lines working at the axiom and maybe on Pillowman for John Harvey and The U of H Honors program then The Lower Depths rehearsal, then off to Rudz to play with The Mathletes and The Redo Makeshift band (Killian Sweeney, Joe Mathlete, Me, Ramon Medina (LP4), and who knows who all else?...really, who knows? could you tell me? cause I'd love to know...)
Friday - work, IBP gala band rehearsal and cardboard art show...possibly karaoke after? beer cellar anyone?
Saturday - The Lower Depths rehearsal - full run - off book - like we know what we're doing...
whooohoo! - the IBP gala - I'm doing more singing than usual this year...and all of it sounds better than when I attempted to sing "Mystery Dance"...if you were there you were probably too drunk to remember me trying to sing "Mystery Dance" and that is o.k....it was, as the gala often is, a long weird night.
Sunday - gala cleanup and maybe Pillowman work? and maybe, just maybe some sleep...

NonAlignment Pact: Music in Seven Days from Seven Writers

Just another quick reminder -
you should be reading NAP...
these people are saying all the right things,
even when they disagree.

Here is Dyn@mutt Doug D. on the Houston "scene."

NonAlignment Pact: Music in Seven Days from Seven Writers


It's ironic, then, that I have to admit I do belong to a scene, and it is the Houston scene, despite being thousands of miles and nine years from it. Amongst many of my university cohorts, Houston was a dirty seven letter word, but for me it was an amazing, improbable place, a place that was inspirational despite its best attempts otherwise, and I still describe the Houston music scene lovingly to people. Little barrier to entry, open to insanity, easy to support yourself in order to afford to make your music, people who are grateful to come out and support anything of interest. You never make it huge if you're from Houston - at least not the loosely defined indie rock, um, scene - you just do what you love for small passionate audiences. At least, that's how I remember it.

cardboard art show

welcome to disclexington

one week from today I'll be showing "art" for the first time...

The Birdhouse Museum presents the Cardboard Art Show at Super Happy Funland from Friday April 13th thru the 20th.

Opening party 6 PM to 9 PM Friday April 13th.

Creative Types channel their energy to cardboard.
Each artist makes 13 pieces, each piece on 6" by 8" cardboard.
Featuring (but not limited to):
Justin Crane - Austinite, former KTRU DJ, musician and card designer.
Keith Reynolds - Houston's original cardboard artist.
Joe Mathlete - Check out Joe's blog and you'll see why he's got to be there.
Claire Yanik - Used to bartend at Catal Huyuk (the Axiom)she now lives in False Pass, Alaska and is a painter and the dj for the Nonalignment Pact.
Joel Orr - Houston puppeteer and organizer.
Brad Moore - Brad Moore is the Breeze.
Lisa Yu - Lisa Yu is Chicago based artist.
John Cramer - Houston psych-metal guitar wizard of Mike Gunn, Project Grimm fame.
Rosa Guerrero - Houston rock photographer and writer. Look out.
Allan Pocius - Chicago cardboard artist. The originator of the Birdhouse Museum series of cardboard art shows.
Denise Ramos - Houston artist and club proprietor.
Yvonne Torres - Houston based artist and NameLess Sound coordinator.
Marie Catrett - Austinite creator extraordinaire
Mike Switzer - Houston musician and Infernal Bridegroom affiliate

Dick Dale on the music industry

via boing boing:

update

The Lower Depths opens May 3rd and rehearsals are going great...
Working getting a week of 365 days/plays for Ornery Theatre.
Just have to find a week open in Houston later in the year when it cools down a bit...

This weekend The Defenestration Unit plays Sat at Notsuoh with Cartwheels in Central Park and The Mathletes...
we're gonna play one of Joe's songs with him...and believe me, you wanna hear it...
next week is crazy busy - rehearsals for mildred's umbrella's 365 days inn addition to the lower depths.
finishing up my art for the cardboard art show at Super Happy Fun Land on the 13th...
and I'm sure at least a coupla things I am forgetting...

anyway,
at least my artistic life is going well...

The trouble with being human these days: Identity by Zygmunt Bauman

The trouble with being human these days: Identity by Zygmunt Bauman

In Identity, Bauman cites French philosopher Michel Serres' nomination of Don Juan as the first hero of modernity, delighting in spontaneity and inconstancy. 'The strategy of carpe diem is a response to a world emptied of values pretending to be lasting,' Bauman suggests. The strategy is well captured in Penny Woolcock's 2003 film The Principles of Lust, in which the protagonist is attracted to a demonic character who rejects commitment of any kind and lives by a credo of instant and disposable gratification. That film's lack of success may indicate that Don Juan has lost his glamour as his worldview has become too real.

bottle up and go

mama caught a chicken
thought it was a duck
put it on the table
with it's feet
sticking up

My Baby Don't Love Me

ASU News > The effects of affection

ASU News > The effects of affection

“Being affectionate is good for you,” Floyd says. “Affection can be a simple, non-pharmaceutical, cheap way to reduce stress.”

Floyd has found that there are direct associations between being an affectionate person and a lower risk of depression and stress.

“Highly affectionate people tend to have better mental health and less stress. They also react to stress better,” he says.

and

At the start of the study, Floyd asked the subjects to rate themselves on a scale he uses to determine how affectionate people are. He found that people’s overall affection level didn’t make a difference in the stress response. Even people who aren’t naturally affectionate can reap the health benefits of affectionate communication.

Eloise

Flamin' Libs: Super Mario Trombones

Awesome!

Flamin' Libs: Super Mario Trombones

makes me proud to be a trombonist.

Jump blues

Just cause you got the blues don't mean you gotta lay down and die

i need something from texas
lightnin hopkins
a jump blues

on the way to get a money order to get my internet back
(typing this on my phone)
landlord calls
says yr out at the end of the month
but i talk him down

i need somethin from texas
lightnin hopkins
a jump blues